Uni Life all over again

Alas, I'm at my final year. You would have no idea how sick and tired I am with this. I love studying, dont get me wrong. I was at fault for not working hard in the first two years of college but now I'm actually hardworking and dedicated to score for the papers. And when someone jeopardize it, causing to deduce tremendeously by lazing around, it makes me so furious. Life isn't fair at times I do understand but this seriously had lower my motivation to rock bottom. Even though so, I'm happy I am actually doing something.

I just moved in to my first house (which isn't on campus accommodation nor dormitory). I would post the pictures one day. It is still under renovation (sadly as one of my housemate is a male, I can finally understand the cliche of women complaining annoyingly on how hard it is to stay with the opposite sex).

Another matter that brings to my attention is the fact that how much I've dissapointed my friends over and over again. It wasn't intention. I would know my close friends would know my behaviour and attitude to matters already but doesn't mean they have to put up with it. I could feel I'm losing my most important friends, especially deds. Talking bout ded deds, I just met up with them when I went back for a short visit during Chinese New Year. There was a lot of emotions mixed up in that night. The line of emotions would be alligned with familiarity, eased, delightful, and a dash of awkwardness. I guess I fall so back that deds of four's shadow slowly formed to three. I am trying to do my best to change everything.

Over and over again, it never ceased to remind me I am still in uni life and yet I'm stuck in this never ending tunnel, falling into the infinity darkness...